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Just A Disappointment
02:55
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I hate the way I feel right now
I've worked so long to be less frail
To be more strong
And now the lightest tap
Has sent me stumbling back
Now I'm trying to understand
How this got so out of hand
It really shouldn't hurt this bad
It was just a disappointment
Let go, Let go, Let go it was just a disappointment
Why are all of my walls breakin'?
Why is my foundation shaken?
This is not the worst I've taken
And I don't want to be mistaken
For a girl who falls apart
When the world is not her pop tart
It really shouldn't be this hard
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2. |
Wounded
04:05
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You're wounded and broken
That's just the way it goes
And the burden that you carry now
It is not one you chose
The lies that you've been told
And the secrets that you hid
Are burdens that you carry now
Because of what another did
[Chorus]
But you are worthy of a better love than this
You are worthy of a better love than this
You are worthy of a better love than this
The boundaries that were broken
And the pressure that you faced
You cannot blame these on yourself
But they cannot be erased
[Chorus]
Don't cover up your wounds
These hands that reach for you
Can be trusted
Your innocence removed
Can be restored to you undefiled
[Chorus]
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3. |
Fire & Comfort
03:17
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I smell like fire
Eating comfort food and
Playing comfort chords
I must admire
The girls who kick off their shoes
And dance to the music
And the noise
I smell like fire
I must admire you
All my emotions are welling up
Inside
Pretty soon I'm gonna throw up
Or cry
Feels the same, the need to
Purge the things that stuck inside you
And the longing for someone
To comfort close beside you
Yet this tendency to run and hide
Where no one can find you
Smell like fire
Smell like fire and comfort
Everyone says I would like you
And it's not wonder he does too
But there's some feelings to get through
Before I can dance
'Cause everything good there is about you
Is mirrored in me and we can dance together
Once I get through this
In the fire and comfort
In the fire
I must admire that you are
Not so different from me
You were so sincere and sweet
I was trying to make a retreat
Please don't take it personally
It's not you
But it's not me
Not so different from me
I smell like fire and comfort
You smell like fire
I must admire that you are
Not so different from me
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4. |
Suddenly
03:19
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Everything you've been through
I've been too
I've been there. I've been scared
I've been unprepared for what's next
And my expectations left me out in the rain
See we hold on so tight
To this life we think is rightfully ours
We think we earned it, deserve it
We think it comes free of charge
But when we lose our expectation
Our whole world is shaken
It's takin' me awhile to
Realign my inclinations
Grant me patience as I wait this out
I don't know how it will resolve
I want the earth to still revolve around me
But suddenly the world is spinning
Without my permission
Thought that we could go on living
Like we owned the stars
But it's not me who chose to enter
In this life we're living
And it seems what I've been given
Isn't mine to keep
Livin' in the fast lane
Yet we complain
We're so stressed by the mess we made
Underestimate all the risks we take
Don't know you're playin' for the highest stakes
And the time we waste on makin' money
Could be spent on livin, funny
That we get confused
What do we use this currency for?
Think that you're poor,
Well maybe you are
If your money buys you happiness
That never reaches your heart
And I'm not presuming that I know you
I'm sure your life's been hard
But regardless of your income
It's sincerity that sets us apart
Chorus
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5. |
Give Love
03:04
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My first reaction is to call you
To write, to invite you to spend the night
But I temper my passion
I'm actin' like "That shit don't faze me"
"Not waitin' all day, please"
I mean, I guess... maybe
See my mind's been occupied
With thought of you
Behind me
There's a line cause I've been
Taking my sweet time
As I start to realize that
This may not be a setback
Just tryin to get my breath back
If I could give love without hesitation
If I could live life without speculation
If I could feel without fear what comes
Natural when I'm near you
Then I would do it
You know we've all heard
"Don't Stop Believin"
Yet I give up my freedom
For logic, caution and reason
And then I start to stifle my feelings
Cause maybe they aren't the real thing
And there's a chance I might feel pain?
So I run from the memory
Of the time that you spent with me
And the sweet possibility of
Me feelin' you feelin' me
The butterflies are no longer breathin'
Cause I've been squeezin'
My dreams til they're leavin'
If I could live life without hesitation
If I could give love without speculation
If I could speak from my heart
Even though it's just the start
Baby you already mean the world to me
You mean the world to me
So forget about the lessons
That felt less than necessary
And whatever might have scared me
'Cause it's probably what prepared me
To be open to the people who will love me
But I barely let them in before I end it
And I push them out again
I bring about my own undoing
Ignore the multitudes who are wooing
I wanna take you out
Treat you right
Give you space
Hold you tight
Dance with you
Call you mine
Celebrate
If I could, If I could, If I
If I could, If I could, without
If I could, If I could give love
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6. |
Push
03:59
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Push push push
She's not going back in
She's determined to live
All good things begin with pain
Push push push
She's not gong back in
She's determined to live
It is from struggle we begin
Stripped to the core
Nothing's left that was before
But don't mourn the loss of who you were
This is the start of who you are
Stripped to the core
Nothing's left that was before
Pick up the pieces of your heart
It's not the end, it is the start
Push push push
You're not going back in
You're determined to live
All good things begin with pain
Push push push
You're not going back in
But as your struggle fades away
All your strength will still remain
I gave wounds, got wounds
Nobody escapes
We are all broken, and we break each other
But if we're strong we'll make each other
Whole again
She pushed, I pushed
She did what I could not
She screamed, I cried
We both survived
And here's the proof
I am alive
this is the proof
I am alive
And we're not going back in
We're determined to live
All good things begin with pain
Push push push
We're not going back in
We're determined to live
It is from struggle we begin
All good things begin with pain
Now is the time to start again
Pick up the pieces of your heart
It's not the end, it is the start
All good things begin with pain
Now is the time to start again
It is from struggle we begin
Life is determined to be lived
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I just want some comfort
It doesn't need to make sense
Touch can be the sustenance
That gets me through this famine
I don't need forgiveness
You could understand me if you tried
It's you who has the tendency to hide
Well I won't expose you
Come out of your own will
Or stay in, it's yours to choose
The world or the windowsill
I see there's so much I don't know
But It's not mine to push you out
If you don't leave I'll be the one to go
I just need some comfort
I need a place to rest
But how am I to cross the disconnect
spreading out between us?
I need you to listen
Empty all the noises in your mind
I know you're still afraid of what I'd find
but I would never shame you
[Chorus]
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8. |
Ride Away
04:09
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From the beautiful
From the painful
I am so full of hope tonight
There is nothing so fulfilling as
The feeling of the wind at my back
As I ride
Ride away, I ride away, I ride away...
Will you follow?
I am powerful, you are gentle
If your heart is full
Take a pen and write
Of miracles, so here it goes
The story's told of when the bold
Rode forth on bicycles, I ride
Ride away, I ride away, I ride away...
Will you follow?
Look inside, I'm not there
Search the skies
I'm flying through the air
On tires like wings
I soar as they spin
And there's not a thing
That feels freer than
When I ride
Although you think I'm lost
I know that I am found
When feet meet pedals
And tires meet ground
Won't take the shortcut
This time around
My lungs are filling
My heart it pounds
The earth resounds
With joyful sounds
I am surrounded by
Dreams so boundless
I ride away, I ride away, I ride away
Will you follow?
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Gardening
03:29
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Write every day, well
I've got nothing to say now
I'm trying not to waste my words on you
Took all the pain out
But the story's the same somehow
I'm trying not to waste my worth on you
[Chorus]
I used to be a burden
Got so used to being hurt and
I'm trying not to waste my worth on you
I've taken all the dirt and
Made a garden from the worst
I'm trying not to waste what we've been through
Goodbye, walk away
Hard to make clean cuts these days
Only pieces of your heart remain
You're acting like you can't be fazed
But inside you're afraid of feelings you don't wanna face
You're like traveler, I wanna be your resting place
But I'm trying not to waste my worth on you
[Chorus]
Everything there was to offer was not for the taking
We were making assumptions
And predictable mistakes
But even things gone bad have worth
Take the earth for example
Compost is ample, but looks like waste
I used to be be a burden
Got so used to being hurt and
I'm trying not to waste my worth on you
I've taken all the dirt and
Made a garden from the worst
I'm trying not to waste my words on you
I'm trying not to waste my worth on you
I'm trying not to waste what we've been through
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10. |
Anchor
03:15
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Baby let's fly a kite, but we need a line
I'm held at bay, like a vine with no walls to climb
There's a feeling that I can't escape
Wandering without a way
Somebody give me boundaries
My freedom's feeling like a cage
I'm adrift, I'm adrift I need an anchor 2x
Out in the vastness of the open skies and oceans wide
Is there a reference among the stars unquantified?
I've been searching for a constellation
Something I could recognize
This endlessness while glorious
Has left me less than satisfied
I'm adrift, I'm adrift I need an anchor 2x
Where am I? I'm like a traveler with no destination
Searching for fences and hours of operation
Show me a rope, give me some expectation
I'm adrift, I'm adrift I need an anchor
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11. |
Treat Me Like Gold
02:31
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I like talking to you
But I don't know how I feel
And I don't know If I can deal
With feeling anything right now
I like being with you
But I don't know what's up your sleeve
And I'd rather be the first to leave
If someone's gonna do it
Maybe you'll treat me like gold
But I don't know if I feel
Like I'm worth it
I'm used to being treated like dirt
And this is unfamiliar territory
It's hard to let go of the old ways
But if you're gonna treat me this way
Maybe it's finally time for me to stay
It's hard to believe
That you really mean what you say
Cause everyone seems to act this way
Before they disappear
And my trust's getting weak
I'm growing tired of seeing the best
In someone who left without
The courtesy to say goodbye
So maybe you'd treat me like gold
But I don't think you know gold when you see it
You had your chance and then
I watched you leave it
And I'm tired of being disappointed
It's hard to let go of the old ways
But if you're gonna treat me this way
Baby it's time for me
To walk away
So when you see me
Please don't be surprised
If I don't meet your eyes
Cause It's been a long year
And I don't have the time to spend
On prolonged endings
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12. |
Took A Shine
03:21
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I can't get you off my mind and
Why would I try to deny it's you
I'd like to be beside soon?
You make it easy to see
You can't take your eyes off me
And I just want to be close to you
I think I took a shine to you
And I'm scared
'Cause I don't know what I might do
When you're there
But I like it that way
I like it that way 2x
I read into your looks and separate myself
From all attachment
I'll be fine- I just need time
I'm thinking much to hard about
The fear of failure
But you're still here
I'll be fine- I just need time
Sweet Tea, oh you're sweet to me
If it's A or E, I just want to BE
Oh let go of insecurity
Hold on to a sense of safety
All my fears are turning out to be
So unnecessary
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Abigail Stauffer Ann Arbor, Michigan
bicycle wielding wanderer
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